Fake...

Does it matter what you think?
Does the world revolve around what you see?
Do you really want everything to be better?
Or do you wish only for you own reality?

Pretending to be selfless, wishing to redeem those you think need to be
by thinking that you're being a judgmental prick
"you're OK, just need to fix this..."
Do you really believe that the world must be the way you want it to be?

Your lack of interest is disturbing
Your ability to point the obvious is outstanding
Your ability to understand what lies under is zero
Try and use your brain, at least ask, listen, feel

Almost everyone knows whats better for you
They will run happily, willing to tell you what they believe to be wrong
Stupid cowards, that's what they are
Just try and present a serious conversation, and they'll fade away, along with their fake interest

This...

Where are you right now?
Behind a desk, sitting in front of a screen?
Why are you there? Do you really enjoy this?
Is it what your dreams are made of?

I remember my younger days
running wild, free, feeling the wind on my face
playing with my friends, alone or away
Enjoying every minute, doing whatever I felt like to
Together, alone, I didn't care

What were your goals as a child?
Did you aim to save the world?
Everlasting wishes to know the world
And yet here you are, sitting by yourself, pretending to know the world around the web

Was it this what you wanted to do?
Isi this the life you fighted for?
Your dreams were made of this?
To spend the rest of your life dying in front of this?

This,
please,
it,
resist,
persist,
desist,
sick,
fist,
insist,
persist,
list...


I feel like puking
everything about this disgusts me
living to please others that only wish you ill
pretending to be happy around those
Those you secretly wish they die, you wish to kill

False morale, I want everyone to be joyfull and live.
Pure bullshit, you feel less sad when someone around you cries in despair
Living for others, enjoying their failures
You're a fucking parasite, and oddly enough, you feel proud about it

Rest in peace, never you will
Because others died before you did,
because others lived, more than you did
You selfish prick are never satisfied and never will

La eternidad o el momento?

Estuve pensando sobre anoche
Sobre ese lado oscuro que nos acoge
Esa sensación de olvido, de estar de noche
De nuestros mundos, tan remotos, que nos acogen

Vives un sinfín de experiencias, de amor y derroche
Una eternidad de contactos, de instantes que nos componen
Instantes relevantes, sin importancia, nos sobrecogen
Como saber cual es relevante, superficial, momentáneo, eterno?

Keep running, stay in fear

What's love, but another feeling
An expression for desire, a beautiful name for lust
The name for absence, the word for everything we wish.
Do you really feel love? Do we wish to give without receiving?

You always want something in return, this capitalist world demands it
You should love me the same way I do, with the same strength you should do
You must demand my absolute devotion to you, you must fear every move I take away from you

Love me you must, or else
Fear me the most, it's what I say
Because as you lover I'll be the sweetest thing you'll ever know
But ... there's no but. Only hell awaits if you don't.

Welcome to this prison, my sweetest love
This prison of fear,chains and love
This golden prison, everyone wants to live
This burning bars, you will adore to the very end.

Everyone envyes you, so lucky you are
I wish for a lover, no matter what it does
I fear loneliness, because it's so sad
to be alone as a human, to hear myself, thinking out loud.

Run from that, fearful void
Filled with madness, filled with love
Those crazy voices that repeat out loud:
You only need to love yourself, and nothing else at all

That's impossible, you untruthful thing
Everyone wants love, everyone loves to fear
The real truth is fear, hate and deceive
The world it's right, to you I shouldn't hear!

At the end of the line the truth becomes clear
There's nothing at all, but a pitch black void of fear
As I depart this miserable world I say:
there's no fear in love, and love is all I can give.

You don't deserve madness...

And the time has come for us to part away
Always expecting to get something back
Never getting a real response going my way

An eternal run, so dense compelling
searching for something lost, but it's inside, always swelling
Do we really need another, a person, a being, a feeling?
Is it worth the effort to get someone, just to find out that love is not compelling?

Get a job, study, work, dress this way, talk another way... Keep showing an image, but hide the truth about yorself
Don't say that, keep quiet, other people like you to be warm, cozy, tender
It's wrong to show your true colors, they won't love you, they'll start hating
Being different is a sin, run away, don't show us something different

We are free, you're a stranger, you don't understand...
The only freedom is turning against yourself, accepting us, the group, the pack, reject
You're only human, you need us, stop running, embrace this place
Never run again from us, loneliness is bad, let's be one, stop being yourself

Keep waiting for that. I don't care about your world, just stay there...

Perfect

Holier than thou, you blissful cunt
Preaching your perfect life, pretending to be above
Just wanted a bucket of my load, all over the place, inside your decaying remains
Run coward, run to your throne
Where nothing happens, where your bliss takes you above

Rot away, run from yourselves...

And you dare to say that you are the one full of hate
that still have eternities to forgive
Filling your mouth with hardships and hate
You are the best of us, there's no match for you out there

And you dare to say that I will like your new self
that things are going to be different, again
ignoring my will and imposing yours, again
What's wrong with you? just go away

And you, who dared to question my loyalty, again
Claiming to be above everyone, that you are holier than us, pretend
It's easy to judge from  above, hate
Run you coward, full happiness is just a myth, away

And you, the redemptor wanting to save
full of wisdom and advise, full mouth of shit
my life is bliss and happiness around
Oh wait, I forgot, if it's to hard I'd prefer to run out

Stupid compassion, feeling the need to help
Ignoring own issues just to go and claim to be of help
rancid pretentions, I'm sorry for your loss, I'll help you with anything I can
Void words and sentences, you only care for your own selves

Rot, go away
Your false pretentions are false and plain
Feeling better by pretending being your better self?
Take your false claims, you selfish bitch, burn in hell

So full of yourself, ego, hate
everything is about you, the world revolving around your shit
leaving and changing surroundings won't mean a thing
you are still with you, you can run away from your hate

I am the worst of all of us, I'm the one who failed
I let all of you inside, I shared my life, again
revealing my own truth, showing my real self
The changes must be made now, revolution, shell, myself

intermedio

El desasosiego me invade
miles de ideas cruzando el eterno vacío de una mente en conflicto
una mente perturbada
una mente acongojada
una mente desconsolada y decepcionada
apasionada y ultrajada

un instante que se alarga sin cesar
un momento que se extiende sin final
exasperación, irá, incapaz de estar fuera de mi y siendo completamente yo
el peso de una cáscara que contiene y reprime, de un mundo que oprime y exige que reveles

Quiero ser eterno, anhelo ser un solo momento
una vida de llanto, una eternidad de lamento
disfrutar cada eterno instante, cada breve momento
¿por qué sigues  dedicando tu vida a ese insulso esperpento (momento) ?

Termina el exaltamiento, se acerca su final
adios negro café, espero no verte mas

Fading

A dark night, an eternal slumber
The stillness of life, the absence of meaning
Just one thing is enough to drive away all meaning
Many things are required to keep this heart beating

Cash, jewels, cars, accounts, clothes, properties
We are full of stuff trying to mold love,
Happiness, life, feelings
Surrounded by empty stuff, wishing to find meaning

Why do I feel so lonely?
Why do I search that meaning?
Always wishing to be alone
But hoping to have warmth, a hug, a kiss, a meaning...

… o morir en el intento

Querer vivir sin amar

Pretender amar sin vivir

Dedicas tan pocos instantes a reflexionar

Dedicas una eternidad a otros, de ti

A la vida das sentido con tareas irrelevantes

Esa vida que has vivido, la que de esperanzas llenaste

Sueños olvidados, anexados al folder de la infancia

Historias pueriles las llamas, cosas de niños, sin importancia

¿Es esta la vida que quisiste?

¿Es este el futuro que soñaste?

Una eternidad agendada en un calendario

¿Es para esto que tanto te esforzaste?

Para ellos, justificas con entonado acento

Mi madre, mi perro, mi hermano, mi abuela

Justificaciones te sobran con tus argumentos

¿Ya pensaste en lo más importante, en lo que antecede a cada uno de ellos?

Vuelve a ese infante, recupera ese aliento

Sueña eternamente, sueña por un momento

Atrapa la vida, que se escapa con cada aliento

Vive en la eternidad, vive cada momento

Feel...

Allow yourself to feel
Embrace the love to give
Endure the loneliness of departure
Accept the cruelness we live

Nothing wants to be done
Tasks are meaningless without feel
Even those that we hold dear
Are disturbing nuisances if I don't want to live

I shut my eyes, expecting will
A driving impulse, a motive to believe
There are no rushes, there are not needed
Death will come to us, no matter how we live

The cold embrace of death is what I will
The chocking calm, the absence of feels
No more motion of this rushing feet
Let me go to rest, let me go to sleep

A full world of people, connected without need
Sharing pictures of breakfast, expecting to get a caring feed
I've never felt so lonely, it has never felt so real
Embrace the pain of life, love the hate of living

Maybe

Maybe we were meant for each other
We were the ideal match
Perfect complement, just the right amount of crazy

Crazy is the timing for this encounter
Crazy that there is no ideal time
Maybe we met at the end of an era
Or the beginning of another

We were ideal, but in different times for each of us

Fuck!

A life guided by reason
Always checking my back
In every corner expecting a treason
Ignoring the gut, the feel before the stab
Learning every year to trust myself and no more

Every time is the same
We start with a smile and everything goes well
Joy feels every pace place of my life
But in the end everything gets darker, closer to an end

I open my heart once again
Opening...

Fuck, I hate when I'm right and it makes no reasonable sense at all...

If I go away

Watching at my soul, whatever that is
I reflect upon my life, my actions, my beliefs
I reflect about being alone
Keeping to myself, closing everything in

Starting to think about the importance of my existence
What difference does it make
To be alive, to be dead?
To be alone, with some, everywere?

The chances are
That life is nothing but an anomaly
That the rule of the universe is nothingness, explosions of energy, revolution of everything
Life is an anomaly, something odd, never meant to exist
An instant in universe's time
A moment never meant to be perceived

We're nothing, but a mere second
A rumor in the wind, a grain of sand on a beach
It doesn't matter who dies or what it means
Never mind our lives, we were never meant to be

Good bye world, universe, anything you think that means
Let's get lost, go away, away from everything, away from me

Ill

Uncertain life we drive
Full of sadness, full of wrath
We preach of happiness, of eternal love
We pretend to be better, the future is worst

Should I pass trough tho life quiet?
Is there anything more out there?

Eternal darkness is what comes
Sublime destruction what we deserve
The world is full of life and joy
This void gets bigger, the only thing that grows

Or nature dictates the behavior
Our mind makes it happen
We desire company, warmth and joy
We obtain hate, sadness, war... DESTROY

Its it worth to make the effort?
To walk those steps, to betray the ego?
To fulfill a life, to obtain what they want?
We should say goodbye, and fade forever

Gut feeling

Pay close attention to your senses
They have evolved for longer than your reason
Stay alert in this season
Trust no one, but your primal reason

Life is long, but no longer than this prison
This prison called earth, the eternal circle we envision
It hurts to trust, with our without reason
Never expecting to break down, hurting for every treason

Easier was before, when innocence was my song
I believed I was tough, that only I could deceive and treason
Now, with years and feelings evolved
I have realized it hurts more
That time only gives pain and reason

It's impossible to rejoice on simple matters
Not anymore, not after a life thinking
Take my advice and don't go further
Close your thoughts, never search your feelings

Again

My bitter self again
A senseless life ahead
I quit to be myself
The world is not prepared
For this self, myself, ever again

I lay speechless here
Waiting for the sleep to take me
To lose myself into oblivion
To find myself in the darkness

No matter the senses
Words are nothing
We want what we can't have
I have what's been left behind

Knowing truth gives only sadness
Ignorance only gives apparent struggle
We advance to be better
We advance and we know that nothing we have