If I go away

Watching at my soul, whatever that is
I reflect upon my life, my actions, my beliefs
I reflect about being alone
Keeping to myself, closing everything in

Starting to think about the importance of my existence
What difference does it make
To be alive, to be dead?
To be alone, with some, everywere?

The chances are
That life is nothing but an anomaly
That the rule of the universe is nothingness, explosions of energy, revolution of everything
Life is an anomaly, something odd, never meant to exist
An instant in universe's time
A moment never meant to be perceived

We're nothing, but a mere second
A rumor in the wind, a grain of sand on a beach
It doesn't matter who dies or what it means
Never mind our lives, we were never meant to be

Good bye world, universe, anything you think that means
Let's get lost, go away, away from everything, away from me

Ill

Uncertain life we drive
Full of sadness, full of wrath
We preach of happiness, of eternal love
We pretend to be better, the future is worst

Should I pass trough tho life quiet?
Is there anything more out there?

Eternal darkness is what comes
Sublime destruction what we deserve
The world is full of life and joy
This void gets bigger, the only thing that grows

Or nature dictates the behavior
Our mind makes it happen
We desire company, warmth and joy
We obtain hate, sadness, war... DESTROY

Its it worth to make the effort?
To walk those steps, to betray the ego?
To fulfill a life, to obtain what they want?
We should say goodbye, and fade forever

Gut feeling

Pay close attention to your senses
They have evolved for longer than your reason
Stay alert in this season
Trust no one, but your primal reason

Life is long, but no longer than this prison
This prison called earth, the eternal circle we envision
It hurts to trust, with our without reason
Never expecting to break down, hurting for every treason

Easier was before, when innocence was my song
I believed I was tough, that only I could deceive and treason
Now, with years and feelings evolved
I have realized it hurts more
That time only gives pain and reason

It's impossible to rejoice on simple matters
Not anymore, not after a life thinking
Take my advice and don't go further
Close your thoughts, never search your feelings

Again

My bitter self again
A senseless life ahead
I quit to be myself
The world is not prepared
For this self, myself, ever again

I lay speechless here
Waiting for the sleep to take me
To lose myself into oblivion
To find myself in the darkness

No matter the senses
Words are nothing
We want what we can't have
I have what's been left behind

Knowing truth gives only sadness
Ignorance only gives apparent struggle
We advance to be better
We advance and we know that nothing we have