If I go away

Watching at my soul, whatever that is
I reflect upon my life, my actions, my beliefs
I reflect about being alone
Keeping to myself, closing everything in

Starting to think about the importance of my existence
What difference does it make
To be alive, to be dead?
To be alone, with some, everywere?

The chances are
That life is nothing but an anomaly
That the rule of the universe is nothingness, explosions of energy, revolution of everything
Life is an anomaly, something odd, never meant to exist
An instant in universe's time
A moment never meant to be perceived

We're nothing, but a mere second
A rumor in the wind, a grain of sand on a beach
It doesn't matter who dies or what it means
Never mind our lives, we were never meant to be

Good bye world, universe, anything you think that means
Let's get lost, go away, away from everything, away from me

Ill

Uncertain life we drive
Full of sadness, full of wrath
We preach of happiness, of eternal love
We pretend to be better, the future is worst

Should I pass trough tho life quiet?
Is there anything more out there?

Eternal darkness is what comes
Sublime destruction what we deserve
The world is full of life and joy
This void gets bigger, the only thing that grows

Or nature dictates the behavior
Our mind makes it happen
We desire company, warmth and joy
We obtain hate, sadness, war... DESTROY

Its it worth to make the effort?
To walk those steps, to betray the ego?
To fulfill a life, to obtain what they want?
We should say goodbye, and fade forever

Gut feeling

Pay close attention to your senses
They have evolved for longer than your reason
Stay alert in this season
Trust no one, but your primal reason

Life is long, but no longer than this prison
This prison called earth, the eternal circle we envision
It hurts to trust, with our without reason
Never expecting to break down, hurting for every treason

Easier was before, when innocence was my song
I believed I was tough, that only I could deceive and treason
Now, with years and feelings evolved
I have realized it hurts more
That time only gives pain and reason

It's impossible to rejoice on simple matters
Not anymore, not after a life thinking
Take my advice and don't go further
Close your thoughts, never search your feelings

Again

My bitter self again
A senseless life ahead
I quit to be myself
The world is not prepared
For this self, myself, ever again

I lay speechless here
Waiting for the sleep to take me
To lose myself into oblivion
To find myself in the darkness

No matter the senses
Words are nothing
We want what we can't have
I have what's been left behind

Knowing truth gives only sadness
Ignorance only gives apparent struggle
We advance to be better
We advance and we know that nothing we have

Despair...

Alone I fall into darkness
a turmoil my life has become
everything is going away
my life, loved ones and fate

No one to embrace me
Alone I have to endure this quest
what I had for granted is fading
slowly you leave, slowly you fade

I'm trying to accept it
the fact that you are leaving
it hurts in my heart
as your child I will cry

Almost the same, decades away
blood is blood, more I care
I wish you my strength, but it's only a dream
I'll start to say goodbye, with a smile in my face

This night was hard, but also an award
I know your might, you gave me that.
Let this suffering be as less as possible
Leave our side smiling and safe

I won't cry, or maybe I will
I wanna fight, I want to kick it away
My youth is useless against your disease
I will be a better son, for the time being.

Soledad...

La vida es un momento
la vida es un lamento
la eternidad es inócua,
la eternidad no tiene tiempo

Lo perverso de esta eternidad,
lo calmado de este lamento
Mi vida adquiere sentido,
La vida sin ti es tormento.

Que lo perpetuo no exista
que lo infinito carezca de tiempo.
Mil y un vidas a tu lado,
para lo demás, de sentido carezco.

Te amo, te amé y te amaré,
Contigo o sin ti viviré.
Que la eternidad sea manifiesta,
que la realidad sea mi tormento.

Cheesy :3

Contaré cada uno de los momentos
viviré cada instante como el último
esperaré con ansias el reencuentro
saborearé hasta ese momento este último beso tuyo

Disfrutaré tu aroma lo que resta del día
ansiaré tu piel sobre la mía
esperaré diligente tu llegada
eterna será mi espera por tu compañía

Mil y un sentimientos se arremolinan en mi mente
sensaciones nuevas, familiares y desconocidas
como una locura muchos lo definirían
pero es algo mucho mas profundo lo que me llena de alegría

Te esperaré atento hasta el final del día
sea un día de mil años, sea una eternidad sin tu compañía
las ansias me llenan junto con la expectativa
de saberte conmigo, de nuevo y con tu alegría